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(no subject) [Aug. 31st, 2006|09:31 pm]
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]

for the most part summer's pretty much over. 
school starts up next week for me. 
to be honest i'm a mess of things over it. 
but i'll survive.
it's like counting down how much jail time you're got left.
well.. T minus two years and counting.  

this summer was the best one i've had. 
spent it with some pretty sweet people. 
went to some pretty sweet places
and saw some pretty sweet things.
and i loved life. 
because it just seemed so simple. 
it was really nice.  

said goodbye to my buddy today. 
i've known him since he was six months old. 
and now he's two and can almost 
talk in full sentences
and pronounce bigger words than "ball". 
it was so hard. 
i felt so bad because he knows when i come over.
he waits for me by the door. 
and when he sees me, he immediatly gets this
huge smile on his face. 
he's going to be waiting by the door for me
for quite a while. 
because Rhode Island is a ways away
from Michigan. 
i really hope this doesn't crush him too bad. 
i love that kid.  

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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2006|08:42 pm]
[mood |sadsad]

ashley leaves for new york tomorrow. we'll get to see her once in a while, when she comes back for visits for Thanksgiving and Christmas and school vacation and things like that, but it's not the same. it's not like we can still call up brendan and tell him to meet us outside in ten minutes to go riding around Ocean Drive. i don't think life will seem as eventful as it was. because they made life beautiful to me. they make me see things i can't when i'm with other people. it's hard to explain. but i'm really going to miss that girl. i'm going to miss getting a call at nine at night wondering if we should get Ching Tao or IHOP. i'm going to miss all of the nights we spent absolutely out of our minds. i'm going to miss driving down the highway at 90 miles an hour, singing at the tops of our lungs. i'm going to miss walking around downtown late at night. 

i'm sad. 

Go on and close the curtains
cause all we need is candle light
You and me and a bottle of wine
going to hold you tonight
Well we know I'm going away
and how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me
let's delay our misery

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire
and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire
to take me away it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye
darling please don't start to cry
Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away
I wish that I, that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go, oh
Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone
tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight

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(no subject) [Aug. 18th, 2006|07:41 pm]
[mood |soresore]

it's just me and my dog here in this house.  

That 70's Show is on.

and in fifteen minutes i'm going to go watch the sun set over the ocean. 

i am SET.

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(no subject) [Aug. 17th, 2006|10:55 am]
[mood |sicksick]
[music |News]

so.. i've only been locked in this house for two days, and already i'm begining to get cabin fever. 
two days of not seeing my friends. 
two days of this throat totally SUCKING ass. 
two days of sleeping because i'm too tired to do anything else, even sit through a movie long enough to see the ending. 
i can't even drink out of any of the glasses, unless we mark one and have that be mine until this thing goes away. (or maybe they'll throw it out after it goes away..who knows)

i can't go anywhere or do anything for the week, besides stay inside. and it's SO beautiful out!!  
even after that, i'm not allowed to lift anything heavy or my spleen could rupture. 
i may not even be able to do band camp, or if i do, i can't march for a long period of time. 
i am SO pissed that this happened. 
i was really hoping that it would only be strep and it would go away in like.. three days tops. 
but no. 

what the hell. 

i didn't even KISS anyone!!! 
i was being so careful, eating healthy and exersizing regularly. 
how did this happen?! 
i mean really. this sucks big time.
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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2006|09:52 pm]
[mood |curiouscurious]
[music |Take on me- Aha]

so there's a lot that's been going on lately. 

i actually thought that this summer was really going to suck to be honest, but i was totally wrong. i think the only thing that's really going to suck is having to say goodbye to ashley when she leaves for New York in a couple of weeks. we make a good trio, me, brendan, and her. when we all hang out, it feels like we're escaping from the rest of the world somehow. it's such a nice feeling to have two people near me that i can really count on for support and all that good stuff. i've had this huge gap in my heart for a couple of months and they really fill it in nicely. 


driver's ed sucks. seriously. whose twisted idea was it to have someone sit at a desk in the middle of summer for three weeks while some italian guy who sounds like Rodney Dangerfield lectures you on driving? honestly, i don't remember anything i've been taught so far besides that HTS stands for "Highway Transportation System". fuck you driver's ed. suck on my non-existant testiclessss. 

other than that, it's pretty much same shit, different day.  
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2006|12:15 am]
[mood |crappyshit]
[music |SNL]

This fucking blows. 

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Great thinking music. [Jul. 9th, 2006|02:04 pm]
[mood |okayokay]
[music |Vertical Horizon]

Great music to listen to while driving down the highway: 

The Ocean Breathes Salty- Modest Mouse
Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now- The Smiths
I am the sun, I am the heir- Morrissey
Save Tonight- Eagle Eye Cherry
Maps- Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Alive- Pearl Jam
Jeremy- Pearl Jam
Black- Pearl Jam
I'm Still Here- Vertical Horizon
Rape Me- Nirvana
Come As You Are- Nirvana
The View- Modest Mouse
Drive- Incubus
Learn To Fly- Foo Fighters
Mr. Jones- Counting Crows
At the Bottom of Everything- Bright Eyes

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Take you away from that empty apartment. [Jun. 29th, 2006|03:27 pm]
[mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[music |Autumn's Monologue- FATA]

Last night was the first time I saw Leigh since August. AUGUST. We saw Click with Adam Sandler in it and laughed and cried histerically when we talked about how great it was to finally see each other again. 

I've missed her so much.

It's going to be really hard to have to let her go again in two weeks. But she really misses Malcolm, so I have to let her go. I can't keep her here forever. It wouldn't be fair to him and their relationship. 

..Unless of course I packaged him up and we sent him here to live with us. :]   

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder the more that you know
When you get lonely if no one's around
You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down
We came together but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I will see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend

[That song reminds me of you the more that I listen to it]

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Atmosphere is thinking shit. [Jun. 27th, 2006|01:11 am]
All she wanted was a little bit of solid
Feels like love, it doesn't matter what you call it
Heal those cuts or hide em underneath the polish
Break another promise and take me as a hostage (take me)
Hold your job down and let the zombies crowd around
Thankin' mommy's god that it's a cop's town
Keep it safe for me while I chase a fantasy
Swervin through the galaxy, searchin for a family
Happily surrounded by planets and stars
She was stuck uptown while you was landin on mars
It's all fucked up now, caught your hand in the jar
Another small step back for the man at the bar (hey bartender)
Spill a little bit of blood on the street
For the love that goes to those who they drink too much
And hold your own glass up to the heavens
Take a little time and try to count the seconds

It goes, pour me another, so I could forget you now
Pour me another, so I could come let you down
Pour me another, so I can remember how
True that I am to this addiction of you [2X]

Drink it all away, numb it down to none
Stay awake tonight and wait for the sun
You say you hate your life, you aint the only one
Let your frustration out the gate and watch the pony run
One double, for the hungar and the struggle
Two for the fool tryin to pull apart the puzzle
Three now I smile while I wait for your rebuttle
By the fourth shot, I'm just another child in a bubble
Tryin to play with the passion and the placement
Just to see what these people let him get away with
Still tryin to climb a mountain for you
Hammer in my hand, still poundin on a screw
She don't listen so he don't speak no more
Nobody's winning 'cause neither is keeping score
Don't wanna think no more, just let me drink some more
Pour me another, cause I can still see the floor

[Chorus] 2X

Live life tipsy, Stiff if it don't fit right with me
Kiss my whiskey, lift my lips, press to my angel
Swallow it and leave her empty bottle on the table
Let the past fall, making faces at that clock on the back wall
Countdown to the last call, ask all these people that make sounds
"How long does it take for the pace to break down"
Another lonely little trophy
If only I could walk a straight line, I'd make it home free
And everybody in this bar thinks they know me
And my story like "poor me" (yea, pour me another homie)
I can count the days til you come back
Or I can follow them sunrays down to the traintracks
I can stumble drunk over hope and love
Or I could keep drinkin until I sober up (hey waitress)


Bottles and pints, and shots and cans
Couches and floors, and drunk best friends
Models and whores, and tattooed hands
Cities and secrets and cats and vans
Good times, laughter, bad decisions
Strippers and actors, and average musicians
Mornings after and walks of shame
The bartender knows me by my real name
Sing it
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Oh shoot. [Jun. 26th, 2006|09:14 am]
[mood |contentcontent]

Lookout world. 

I now know how to read the bus schedules. :)

There's no stoppin' me now.
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